Middle of a Breakdown

Middle of a Breakdown
Unofficial artwork
General information
Artists	Ava Max
Recorded	May 2019
Leaked	December 29, 2024
Genre	Pop
Length	2:56
Album	Heaven & Hell (Deluxe)
Label	Atlantic
Writer(s)	Amanda Koci • Caroline Pennell • Sean Myer • Henry Walter
Producer(s)	Cirkut • Sean Myer

"Middle of a Breakdown" (also known as "Breakdown") is an unreleased song by Ava Max, intended for the shelved deluxe edition of Heaven & Hell.

Background

The song leaked in full on December 29, 2024, alongside "Hi & Bye" and "Move".

Trivia

• It was recorded in the same session as "My Head & My Heart" and "EveryTime I Cry".
• The song was later sold to G-Eazy and Demi Lovato.
  • Before this, the idea of giving the song to David Guetta and featuring Max was pitched by the writers.
• It's encoded with iTunes iOS version 12.9.5.5.
  • This means the song was recorded sometime between May 13, 2019, and May 28, 2019.

Lyrics

[Verse 1]
I got big plans, but none of them feel like mine
I got good friends but I never make the time
'Cause I've been trapped in all the freedom, throw my heart up at the ceiling
I take another drink so I can kill the voice of reason
I got big plans, but none of them feel like mine

[Pre-Chorus]
Now I'm talking to myself again
These words that I wish I never said
I'm tryna walk back from the edge
I'm looking for a way out of my feelings and I'm screaming

[Chorus]
I'm in the middle of a breakdown, baby
I need you, I need you
I'm in the middle of a storm now, baby
I need you, I need you to come over
Tell mе this will be over, over soon
I'm in thе middle of a breakdown, baby
I need you, I need you

[Verse 2]
I miss days when I used to feel like me, oh yeah
And I miss days when I wouldn't change a thing, no, no
I say all of the right things, always at the wrong time
But try to get to know myself but when I drink I fake cry
I miss days used to feel like me

[Pre-Chorus]
Now I'm talking to myself again
These words that I wish I never said
I'm tryna walk back from the edge
I'm looking for a way out of my feelings and I'm screaming

[Chorus]
I'm in the middle of a breakdown, baby
I need you, I need you
I'm in the middle of a storm now, baby
I need you, I need you to come over
Tell me this will be over, over soon
I'm in the middle of a breakdown, baby
I need you, I need you

[Post-Chorus]
Oh, ah
Oh, ah

[Bridge]
I'm tired, a little bit selfish
I'm wired to fuck up myself
And I'm dying to find somethin' else out there
Oh, I'm tired, a little bit selfish
I'm wired to fuck up myself
And I'm dying to find somethin' else out there

[Pre-Chorus]
I'm looking for a way out of my feelings and I'm screaming

[Chorus]
I'm in the middle of a breakdown, oh-oh
I'm in the middle of a storm now, baby
I need you, I need you to come over
Tell me this will be over, over soon
I'm in the middle of a breakdown, baby
I need you, I need you